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Im sick of:
1) Being alone
2) Being fat
3) Being afraid
4) Being led on
5) Being hated for no reason
6)Being a virgin
7)Feeling depressed
8)Being called a skank,skumbag,whore etc.
9)Never being good enough
10)Caring
11) Being just friends
12)Crying myself to sleep worrying about somone who could care less..
13) Everyone breakin up or getting divorced
14)Getting too attached
15) Love

But most of all..Im sick of being Me.

<3 Always,
Brittt

Currently Listening I Knew I Loved You By Savage Garden see related

its almost ten pm and im bored so i decided to write in here. blahh im so cold right now im wearing a hoodie and i have a big blanket around me lol. russell is off watching a movie so im bored and here alone. i cant wait to seee him again so i can say "the word" haha i just wanna kiss him so bad. hes so cute && i really really like him lol. but idk what he thinks..but i hope its the same. lately we've had some find convos. haha we're gonna "have sex" lmao i dont even think he knows how to but whateverrr lol. newayz. i stayed the night @ amandas the other night. we stayed on the fone and talked to him till almost 4 in the morning. i didnt wanna hang up with him. i love hearing the sound of his voice. he always makes me so happyyy. idk how but he does. and lately as far as him drinking goes. im caring less and less i mean its not like hes a stoner or somthingg and he doesnt hurt me when he drinks. i just dont want nething to happen to him thats all but newayz off that subject. i feel like ive known him foreverr to the point where i cant live or breath without him. jheez maybe this is what true love feels like. godd all i want right now is to just let him hold me in his arms. kinda like zack did...blahhh that really suckeddddd cant believe i thought about him..eww blahh yuck hah well maybe its cause im wearing his hoodie but its all good. him and christine are together and its kinda cute. "kinda" what more can i say im jealous but ohh well at least i admit it. but me and zack are still good friends so yeah that makes me kinda happy =] i love him like muffins *hehe* newayz yeahh im so boreddd right now that i made a vampire freaks account even tho i dont even know how to use it. im just trying to pass the time til russ returns from away. its amazing hes such a sweetheart im hoping i can stay at katrinas some weekend soon so i can see him again and i can see my beautiful christina&katrina again i miss them soo much thier the most amazing friends ever. but yeahh im gonna see if nething on tv has come on since ive checked. <3333

Later<3

<3 Alaways,
Brittttt!

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 Brittany's In Love

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Currently Listening In Love and Death By The Used All That i've got see related

Wow this weekend was amazing <3 I met so many ogdensburgians. but right about now i feel like shit. I finally met russell. and it was probably for the worst rather than better. cause i think he wicked doesnt like me. ahh i hate feeling like this. im thinkin maybe i should just like drink with him and be stupid so that i can be considered "cool" even tho i really dont want to. ohh well. im not his boss. so i cant tell him what to do and i really dont think he cares newayz. i just wanna know if he likes me or not. cause i need to know. cause if we're just gonna be friends im not gonna waste my time thinkin about him. and worrying about somthing happening to him. i have such a headache right now! I hate it so much. its gayy as fuck. I wish i was just back with zack when i knew that someone actually cared and loved me for me. i miss him. but i feel that im in love with russell but yet i dont even know him that welll. BLAHH whatever. i dont know nemore. i just have this weird feeling when im around him. that i like. idk. grr. i wish i knew what he thought. i really do like him. but i dont wanna be all like omg i like you alot and have him be like yeahh we're just friends. ur not my type..i hate that like alot. but idk. im so confused i dont know what to think. i have a ride to o-burg not this weekend but the next weekend but i dont know if im going to go. when im there i always feel like im "in the way" like i "dont belong" i feel like a forgiener coming to america. =[ i dont know. i wish i could just move out of this state. and im rambeling now but idfk cause im boreddd as fuck cause my space is down and i just feel like bursting into tears. i miss katrina alot. shes like awsome and i wish i could tell her how i feel about russ but i doubt it will do ne good. i guess this was just like the whole tasha and cota thing. he acted like he liked her on the fone and stuff and then met her. and could care-less after. I hate this. shit like this is what makes me wanna blow my head offf!!! well now im vision is all blurrred so i think im gonna get off. and try to sleep or somthing. even though i doubt it will be possible...

<3 Always,
Britttt!

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 Well i can say that i havent wrote in here in a lil while. lol. This weekend is gonna be soo effin awsome. Me&amanda are going to katrinas on saturday. and i get to meet russell!! mhmmm but right now im so extremely bored. cause im waiting for my mom to get back so that i can go to the store and get some stuff! but newayz yeah lately life has been pretty good. each time i talk to russell i seem to like him more and more than i already do. ehh but im still wicked scared to meet him cause im afraid that ill like him but he wont like me. which will really suck...but yeahhh other than that im really looking forward to hanging out with katrina and other ppl lol. omg i was talking to my buddy jed last night and we're pirates we're captains and mandy is first mate haha. i really need to meet that kid. well newayz thats all for now. im gonna go finish getting ready to go.

Later <3

<33 Always,
Brittt!